I don’t know where it comes from

This flush of anger and shame

It sneaks up on me

Soaks everything like rain

I wish i could stop it

Some trick of the mind

But I’m at the mercy

Of the passage of time

I sink, i settle, i slow it down

You flit, you flutter, a bird, my girl

I’m a tree, a rock, a place to dock

You’re the wind, my sun, part of my flock

We meet in the middle

A kite and it’s cord

You raise me up

I keep you tight

You and me

We do it right

Give me your lips,

Your gasping breath,

The arch of your back,

And your straining hips.

Give me your gaze,

Fierce and overwhelmed,

The curl of your toes,

And the clench of your fist.

Give me your skin

Hot and slick

The feel of your heart pounding

The echo between your ribs

Jealousy hurts

Thats it

thats the poem

It feels like my insides are crushed

And i am stuck

I’m not growing

I can’t move

Because I am wanting this

We strive for it

But I’m supposed to

Work through

Be true

To myself

But it’s awful

And i hate it

And it’s not supposed to matter

If i trust you

Though i do

Because we want that freedom

To choose more

One day we will be less than memories

That missing feeling in the heart

Maybe we will reach the minds of millions

But thats probably not our part

I’m gathering photographs of us and letters to us both

You can clearly see a visual of our love and of our growth

Maybe it’ll be enough for them to say

Yes you are real, you can stay

Maybe finally I can stop worrying

Please let it happen I pray

I see your hairs poking over the duvet

And the child sneaking close

You clear your throat and sigh

Rolling over to cover your eyes

Sleep more my love, i will wait

Soaking in the quiet and the peace

For you sleeping, lips smacking, bones cracking

The pleasure it gives will never cease